Cancer sucks!

I have to admit, things are getting a little scary for me again.

For the first time, today one of my docs referred to the nodule in my back as a met, unhesitatingly, as if there were never any question. Up till now, my other docs were all saying that the scans were inconclusive but this doc didn't seem to have much doubt.

I'll be getting a bone scan in the next few week which will hopefully nail it down one way or another.

Meanwhile, I am working on scheduling Novalis radiation treatment for the new nodule in my brain. That will mean another trip up to Hollywood (BLEH) - hopefuly I won't have to stay there an enture week this time.

I've been reading too many statistics and descriptions of the types of problem that can arise from having mets in the places I have them - most recently that would be in the temporal lobe - and I'm scaring the shit out of myself. I really need to cut that out.

This Feb. will be the 1 year anniversary of that first brain met and the dark, negative side of me is keeps wondering if I'll even make it to that point or how much longer.

Yeah, I'm in one of those moods again... :/

(My head hurts)