Good news for a change.
Of course, better news would have been that they'd shrunk some or disappeared altogether but as I've come to know, that is pretty unlikely.
Still, I asked Dr. G if there was still some chance that the nodules are something other than recurrent cancer and he said, yes. How much of a chance, I have no idea. At the previous dr. visit, he had said that it was possible but unlikely.
So it's back to waiting.. They'll scan me again in November. I'm trying to get my brain out of Worrying Mode and back into Living Mode in the mean time.
I'm tired..
Tired of being afraid.
Tired of not feeling well.
Tired of being angry.
Tired of being sad.
Tired of feeling like I'm coming apart.
Tired of my own self-pity.
So anyway.. here's some lyrics to a song from my youth that apply to a certain young person that I know...
Waiting for the winds of change
To sweep the clouds away
Waiting for the rainbow's end
To cast its gold your way
Countless ways
You pass the days
Waiting for someone to call
And turn your world around
Looking for an answer
To the question you have found
Looking for
An open door
You don't get something for nothing
You can't have freedom for free
You won't get wise
With the sleep still in your eyes
No matter what your dreams might be
What you own is your own kingdom
What you do is your own glory
What you love is your own power
What you live is your own story
In your head is the answer
Let it guide you along
Let your heart be the anchor
And the beat of your own song
You don't get something for nothing
You can't have freedom for free
You won't get wise
With the sleep still in your eyes
No matter what your dreams might be
~ Peart
